You Were


You Were My Angel From Above

You walked into my life,
When things were crazy.
During an internal fight,
Completely amazed me.

In this time of need I had,
You forced me to see,
The good and bad,
Showing who I’m meant to be.

Every day with you on my mind,
You consumed my heart.   
Now spinning around trying to find,
The pieces you pulled apart.       

I had a feeling,
Of being whole.          
Now a shelled being,
From carving this hole.

Moving on breaks my soul,
I miss the love,
Feeling out of control, 
Because you were my angel from above.


To Again Restart


It’s hard to hold on,
It’s hard to believe.
When caring conversation gone,
And loving words leave.

Where did my love go?
Where is he hiding?
I miss him so,
And hate this fighting!

We once had something special,
Deep inside our souls.
Now lost and canceled,
We are opposite poles.

Is there anything left,
For us to keep holding?
Or do we forfeit,
And stop believing?

We once made others,
Wish to be us.
With four leaf clovers,
They begged for the rush.

Where did we go?
What has torn us apart?
I wish to know,
To again restart.



Missing you,

Feelings rise.

Needing you,

I ache and Sigh.

Feeling you,

I am alive. 

Kissing you,

Gives me the best high.

Craving you,

I cannot wait,

Believing in you,

I will always state.

Dreaming of you,

I feel safe and loved.

Waking without you,

I feel lonely and cold.

To wake next to you,

Would make me complete.

No longer an emptiness without you,

No other feeling could compete. 

My heart belongs to you,

My soul is now brand new, 

Baby I love you,

I am yours, this is all true.

No Longer Consumed


My heart rapidly beating, 

My mind filled with you never tires, 

You cause these extreme feelings,

You caught my soul on fire.

Thud, thud, thud…

Heart pounding fiercely.

Who knew you could,

Do this to me?

The mere thought of your smile,

Makes me internally warm.

You make me dream while,

Wishing to be in your arms.

Feelings of true,

Feelings so real,

All for you,

This seems unreal. 

My soul flew free, 

It’s filled with happiness, 

Because of you and me,

It’s no longer consumed with sadness. 

Am I A Fool?


My mind so full,

My heart so fast;

You erase the bull,

You helped me get past.

My thoughts on you,

Make words come hard.

My feelings true,

Breaking my guard.

Things that come easy,

Are now not so.

Thinking is erasing,

Where did it go?

You understand me,

You make my mind blow.

You helped me to see,

To go with the flow.

Your touch so craving,

Your voice gives me chills.

Your heart so giving,

You give me thrills.

I can’t get enough,

Of the time we spend,

I need you to get through the tough,

I don’t want this to end.

What is it you do,

That causes this? 

Am I a fool,

To express this bliss?

Who Are You?


Who are you to say,

Not to be myself? 

I shouldn’t be a certain way,

And need to put my heart upon the shelf.

You think you won,

This life’s quest.

Is it fun,

Thinking it’s for the best?

Always think,

Before you speak.

You assume I’m weak,

I haven’t even peaked.

I don’t know what you’re thinking,

Asking me to change.

You will be the one sinking,

When life becomes rearranged. 

I hope you know what you’ve done,

You will soon see.

I’m no longer worried about you hun, 

The inner bitch is coming out of me.

What Is This Thing Inside Me?


What is this?

This thing inside me?

That prevents a feeling of bliss,

That prevents the feeling of being free.

It’s torture inside my soul,

It shatters my heart,

I just want to be whole,

And no longer fall apart.

A mass of anguish,

I wish to rid of,

A bundle causing parish,

Causing hate and not love.

From Where does this hurt flow from?

How can it release it’s hold? 

I don’t want to feel, I need to be numb,

From all this internal cold.

I wish I knew what was wrong,

I wish I could let it all go,

I don’t know where I belong, 

Inside could just explode.

The ugly feeling inside me,

Will not let go it’s grasp,

The pain causing an internal bleed,

Please no longer last.

Where Am I Going?


Where am I going? 

My path is blurry.

What am I doing? 

My life is hurried.

I can’t see,

Only feel,

What am I to be?

What in life is real?

So many wants,

So many wishes,

My life feels like a front,

It’s burning into ashes.

What is life becoming?

It feels so surreal.

Why is it aching?

I don’t know how to deal.

How do I turn,

My life around? 

To rid myself of this burn,

And internal screaming sounds.



An empty space,

Carved from heart, 

A tortuous place,

Somewhere dark.

Many years,

This hole grew, 

Many tears,

Filled it too.

Looking for happiness,

To fill this void,

Nothing but sharpness, 

Cut deeper and toyed.

Fed up with pain,

Giving up the search,

Nothing more to gain,

Just wait now and perch. 

Many more years,

Are passed since then,

Many more tears,

Have fallen again.

Yet, time has changed,

To a different space,

Life rearranged, 

To a new found place.

There’s smiles and laughter,

There’s happy tears too,

There’s new things after,

And less days of blue.

Things in life, 

Always change,

Even the painful strife,

Even the rage.

Life is what you make it,

This is true,

Even if you fake it,

Eventually you feel it too.

End This


Sorrow hides,
Through hands of time,
Aching deep inside,
Till life’s ending chime.

The deep seeded abyss, 
Continues like this,
Something’s amiss,
Cannot find any bliss.

Searching through darkness,
There is no likeness, 
Needing to find the brightness,
In life’s blindness.

Helplessness in searching, 
Controls all feeling,
Wishing and needing, 
To end this deep agonizing suffering.