You Were

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You Were My Angel From Above

You walked into my life,
When things were crazy.
During an internal fight,
Completely amazed me.

In this time of need I had,
You forced me to see,
The good and bad,
Showing who I’m meant to be.

Every day with you on my mind,
You consumed my heart.   
Now spinning around trying to find,
The pieces you pulled apart.       

I had a feeling,
Of being whole.          
Now a shelled being,
From carving this hole.

Moving on breaks my soul,
I miss the love,
Feeling out of control, 
Because you were my angel from above.

When Nothing Becomes How It Should

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Love is in the heart,
Pain is in the soul,
Somewhere in time we did part,
Now not loving whole.

I don’t know what the future holds,
It worries me everyday.
Our life untold,
Can love always stay?

Will our lost connection return?
Can we last for all time?
Or will our souls burn,
And no longer be fine?

This I think,
Each and everyday.
My heart sinks,
Not having a paved way.

This metaphorical ledge,
We have teetered for years,
Puts me on edge,
And causes many tears.

I fear the day will come,
When things crumble for good.
I fear we will be done,
When nothing becomes how it should.

A Moment in Life

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A moment in life,
Can change your mind,
Let go of the strife,
And give freedom from time.

It’s said to not search,
For things you hope for.
Just wait and perch,
To rid yourself of the sore.

Dwelling on the past,
Causes pains beyond measure.
Letting go at last,                                
Brings the heart and soul pleasure.

Life is what you make it,
Smile through the aches.
One day the bottom of your pit,
Will rise up releasing the agony that bakes.

Closure Brings Freedom
An example of a moment releasing pain.

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For Me To Be Whole

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In a cloud I stay,
Dreaming of you.
I wish all day,
To say I love you.

You make up my nights,
You consume my days,
My mind fights,
In so many ways.

I need you in my life,
I need you always,
You help with the strife,
Your love brightens me everyday.

When I can’t see you,
I feel so alone.
I become blue,
I don’t want to stay home.

I wish to be yours,
I crave your soul,
I need your arms,
For me to be whole.

To Again Restart

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It’s hard to hold on,
It’s hard to believe.
When caring conversation gone,
And loving words leave.

Where did my love go?
Where is he hiding?
I miss him so,
And hate this fighting!

We once had something special,
Deep inside our souls.
Now lost and canceled,
We are opposite poles.

Is there anything left,
For us to keep holding?
Or do we forfeit,
And stop believing?

We once made others,
Wish to be us.
With four leaf clovers,
They begged for the rush.

Where did we go?
What has torn us apart?
I wish to know,
To again restart.

What Is This Thing Inside Me?

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What is this?

This thing inside me?

That prevents a feeling of bliss,

That prevents the feeling of being free.

It’s torture inside my soul,

It shatters my heart,

I just want to be whole,

And no longer fall apart.

A mass of anguish,

I wish to rid of,

A bundle causing parish,

Causing hate and not love.

From Where does this hurt flow from?

How can it release it’s hold? 

I don’t want to feel, I need to be numb,

From all this internal cold.

I wish I knew what was wrong,

I wish I could let it all go,

I don’t know where I belong, 

Inside could just explode.

The ugly feeling inside me,

Will not let go it’s grasp,

The pain causing an internal bleed,

Please no longer last.

Where Am I Going?

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Where am I going? 

My path is blurry.

What am I doing? 

My life is hurried.

I can’t see,

Only feel,

What am I to be?

What in life is real?

So many wants,

So many wishes,

My life feels like a front,

It’s burning into ashes.

What is life becoming?

It feels so surreal.

Why is it aching?

I don’t know how to deal.

How do I turn,

My life around? 

To rid myself of this burn,

And internal screaming sounds.

Release Of A Lifetime

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Release the agony,

Sigh away the pain.

These feelings inside of me,

Pour from my eyes like rain.

The internal turmoil , 

Bursting out of my soul.

The wall crumbles and foils, 

I can release now and feel whole.

A lifetime of emotions,

Flowing out of my heart.

Rid of commotions,

This is a brand new start.

Time this will take,

To regain my new strength.

A new expression I’ll make,

With my new sight on fate.

This happened for a reason,

I will see it unfold.

End this emotional treason,

And a new life emerges untold. 

Eventually

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An empty space,

Carved from heart, 

A tortuous place,

Somewhere dark.

Many years,

This hole grew, 

Many tears,

Filled it too.

Looking for happiness,

To fill this void,

Nothing but sharpness, 

Cut deeper and toyed.

Fed up with pain,

Giving up the search,

Nothing more to gain,

Just wait now and perch. 

Many more years,

Are passed since then,

Many more tears,

Have fallen again.

Yet, time has changed,

To a different space,

Life rearranged, 

To a new found place.

There’s smiles and laughter,

There’s happy tears too,

There’s new things after,

And less days of blue.

Things in life, 

Always change,

Even the painful strife,

Even the rage.

Life is what you make it,

This is true,

Even if you fake it,

Eventually you feel it too.

Answered Someday

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Through the night my mind’s afar,
I wish to seek my unanswered questions.
Needing to let go of emotional scars,Preventing emotional erections.
  
Seek, seek, and again seek,
Why can’t the answers return?
Why must I become so meek?
When will letting go, be my turn?
   
How can emotions control me so?
They emerge from my soul,
Yet, hurt me to know. 
I need to learn how to let them go.
   
This internal turmoil is bleeding my heart. 
This exhausting emotional dance binds my spirit.
This inner torture tears me apart,
My mind now cannot even hear it.
   
From where do these feelings reside?
Where can I throw them away?
When can I no longer hide?
Why do these emotions seem stay?
   
All these thoughts run through me,
Each and every day.
I cannot wait to see,
My questions answered someday.